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I have to recognize, accept, and more get the benefit of these swings of mood for I learn from each—and it is only when we try to suppress one aspect of ebb or flow, give or take, make or rest, challenge or response, love or hate, upbeat or downbeat—when we try to be simply happy, strong, loving, or whatever, try to freeze the rhythm into a straight line progression that we become frustrated, impotent, anxiety-ridden and restless. | I have to recognize, accept, and more get the benefit of these swings of mood for I learn from each—and it is only when we try to suppress one aspect of ebb or flow, give or take, make or rest, challenge or response, love or hate, upbeat or downbeat—when we try to be simply happy, strong, loving, or whatever, try to freeze the rhythm into a straight line progression that we become frustrated, impotent, anxiety-ridden and restless. | ||
So, when I hate Adele I will recognize it from now on in myself, even as I will try to appreciate her when she hates me. Indeed I do. Drunk, full of beans, she often hates me, or rather feels general lustility for the world. After all hatred is not simply hatred. Hatred is valuable too. Hatred is the mover, love is the rest. Hate makes, love nourishes. A mother who simply loved her children would make nothing but contented cows. It takes the bull to make a bullfight, and when we have a Ferdinand in the ring,{{refn|{{NM}} refers to [[w:Munro Leaf|Monroe Leaf]]’s 1936 children’s book, ''The Story of Ferdinand'', about a bull that will not fight the matadors or picadors in the bullring, and would rather smell flowers.}} the | So, when I hate Adele I will recognize it from now on in myself, even as I will try to appreciate her when she hates me. Indeed I do. Drunk, full of beans, she often hates me, or rather feels general lustility for the world. After all hatred is not simply hatred. Hatred is valuable too. Hatred is the mover, love is the rest. Hate makes, love nourishes. A mother who simply loved her children would make nothing but contented cows. It takes the bull to make a bullfight, and when we have a Ferdinand in the ring,{{refn|{{NM}} refers to [[w:Munro Leaf|Monroe Leaf]]’s 1936 children’s book, ''The Story of Ferdinand'', about a bull that will not fight the matadors or picadors in the bullring, and would rather smell flowers.}} the crowds gives hate, the crowd rains pillows down. When the bull hates and charges and seeks to kill, and the bullfighter shows his great appreciation and understanding of that hatred, then the corwd (crowd and cord) can love. And how it loves. It would kiss the feel, the (I wrote feel for feet—must explore this.) feel, the feet, of the bullfighter, in order the ass, the genitals, the belly and the lips, it adores this taking loving agent of bullfighter who has shown the creativity which may be saved from hatred. | ||
And that is the value of the bullfight—it shows us that hatred too is creative, it is at the heart of the creative process—that hatred goes into love and love back to hatred. No wonder the Mexicans turn on their hero-bullfighters when they’re bad. And no wonder El Loco{{refn|Nickname of the Mexican bullfighter, Amado Ramirez, who Mailer saw fight during his visits to Mexico. He wrote an essay, “The Crazy One,” about Ramirez, published in the October 1967 issue of ''Playboy'', rpt., in ''[[The Bullfight]]'' (1967).}} was so extraordinary—for he aroused the maximum of love and hate, and aroused it in waves. | And that is the value of the bullfight—it shows us that hatred too is creative, it is at the heart of the creative process—that hatred goes into love and love back to hatred. No wonder the Mexicans turn on their hero-bullfighters when they’re bad. And no wonder El Loco{{refn|Nickname of the Mexican bullfighter, Amado Ramirez, who Mailer saw fight during his visits to Mexico. He wrote an essay, “The Crazy One,” about Ramirez, published in the October 1967 issue of ''Playboy'', rpt., in ''[[The Bullfight]]'' (1967).}} was so extraordinary—for he aroused the maximum of love and hate, and aroused it in waves. | ||