Entry Dates
December 1, 1954
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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L1 | 1 | Perhaps the artist is less | |||
2 | 2 | Lipton's seems to open one | |||
3 | 3 | Fucking is perhaps an approach | |||
4 | 4 | In relation to (1) | L1 | Note. | |
5 | 5 | The concentration camp novel | Note. Unclear x-ref # in note. | ||
6 | 6 | One should always listen attentively | Note. | ||
7 | 7 | Herbert A[ptheker]. said of Lipton’s | Note. | ||
8 | 8 | In modern jazz, one feels | Note. | ||
9 | 9 | Thoreau’s beautiful remark | Note. | ||
10 | 10 | I upset Herbert [Aptheker] by saying | |||
11 | 11 | In a short novel | Note. |
December 8, 1954
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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12 | 12 | One should always try to | |||
13 | 13 | It seems to me that | |||
14 | 14 | It is possible that many | Note. | ||
15 | 15 | All of my life with Adele | |||
16 | 16 | If there is that other world | |||
17 | 17 | Listening to a child | |||
18 | 18 | I advertise to everyone | |||
19 | 19 | Six and Four are close | |||
20 | 20 | Knowledge is systematized ignorance | |||
21 | 21 | A novel is slowly emerging | |||
22 | 22 | It may be that the | |||
23 | 23 | In the conc. camp novel | L17 | ||
24 | 24 | There may actually be such | |||
25 | 25 | Every word sets up | L24 | Note. | |
26 | 26 | Television may have some extraordinary | Note. | ||
27 | 27 | Possibly the spasmodic nervous system | |||
28 | 28 | Vomiting may be the orgasm | |||
29 | 29 | No saint can be a teacher | |||
30 | 30 | Infants may be enormously wise | |||
31 | 31 | The saint and the psychopath | Note. | ||
32 | 32 | No one is more unreligious | |||
33 | 33 | Medicine may be witchcraft | end: [and] its emphasis on progress. | ||
34 | 34 | The aggressive instinct | |||
35 | 35 | Psychoanalysis, liberalism, etc. etc. | |||
36 | 36 | I have learned more from | |||
37 | 37 | In The Deer Park after the | Note. | ||
38 | 38 | If the more saintly people | |||
39 | 39 | In a Collier’s article | Note. | ||
40 | 40 | Words are not entirely bad | |||
41 | 41 | Death may be the price | |||
42 | 42 | I know nothing about semantics | |||
43 | 43 | Talk with Rhoda L. | Note. |
December 17, 1954
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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44 | 44 | The saint and the churchman | |||
45 | 45 | There is no death-instinct | |||
46 | 46 | What worries me today | |||
47 | 47 | Spengler is a great writer | L48 | Notes. | |
48 | 48 | Swing in jazz is different | |||
49 | 49 | When Susie speaks of “war” | |||
50 | 50 | There is a lesson for me | L47 | ||
51 | 51 | A remark on why psychoanalysts | |||
52 | 52 | When the businessman thinks | |||
53 | 53 | Perhaps the reason Susy | Note. | ||
54 | 54 | I understand now what Danny | Notes. | ||
55 | 55 | The word is a flat | |||
56 | 56 | In the larger sense | Note. | ||
57 | 57 | The Stalinists have sneered | Note. | ||
58 | 58 | My characters in The Deer Park | |||
59 | 58 | Equations: Man is born | Added punctuation in ¶3. | ||
60 | 59 | The big novel could | Note. | ||
61 | 60 | I learned a practical matter | |||
62 | 61 | I have always hated sentimentality | |||
63 | 62 | The measurement of time | |||
64 | 63 | Advertising and television and radio | Note. | ||
65 | 64 | Because the desire for material | |||
66 | 65 | Almost always experts can never |
December 28, 1954
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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67 | 66 | At its best, my mind | |||
68 | 67 | Over and over again |
December 29, 1954
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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69 | 68 | “Vested interest” is enormously more | |||
70 | 69 | Get beneath words | (partial) | ||
71 | 70 | The gossip is the great | |||
72 | 71 | Words have not only echoes | |||
73 | 72 | The concealments of language | |||
74 | 73 | The sensual is the soul’s | |||
75 | 74 | The Sense of the Past | |||
76 | 75 | There are two kinds of hatred | |||
77 | 76 | The power of the word | Note. | ||
78 | 77 | They key to Sergius’ character | |||
79 | 78 | The breakup with Lulu | Note. | ||
80 | 79 | Jokes. Charley Wiener just said | Note needed?: Charley Wiener | ||
81 | 80 | Eitel in court | Note. | ||
82 | 81 | In error there is also truth | |||
83 | 82 | Eitel and Elena—last chapter | Note. Use partial w/ L81, too. | ||
84 | 83 | Don Beda | Note. | ||
85 | 84 | Interpretations of present events | Notes. | ||
86 | 85 | My feeling about semantics | L42 | Note. | |
87 | 86 | One thing must be said | L85, L71 | ||
88 | 87 | Stories of dreams | |||
89 | 88 | Bombing as the great shitting | |||
90 | 89 | Comedians and comic writers | |||
91 | 90 | Women who always hate | |||
92 | 91 | The more knowledge | |||
93 | 92 | Possibly, bad works of art | |||
94 | 93 | The spy (another adventurer) | Note. | ||
95 | 94 | Actors and spies | |||
96 | 95 | When a friend says | |||
97 | 96 | “Am I boring you?” | |||
98 | 97 | So, boredom, depression, laughter | |||
99 | 98 | Saints and psychopaths | |||
100 | 99 | Laughter is spiritual | |||
101 | 100 | The psychopath sees the present | |||
102 | 101 | So the hipster is the adventurer | |||
103 | 102 | Given my intellectual verbal mind | |||
104 | 103 | A possibility occurs to me | Note. | ||
105 | 104 | Marion Faye note | |||
106 | 105 | Note 103 could be | L103 | Could the x-ref actually be L105? | |
107 | 106 | Marion Faye note | Note. | ||
108 | 107 | Marion Faye on Eitel | |||
109 | 108 | Marion Faye in prison | |||
110 | 109 | Sergius is my brother | |||
111 | 110 | Marion F Journal | |||
112 | 111 | My journal again | |||
113 | 112 | False humility | Seems like this should not be cut, as L115 alludes to it. | ||
114 | 113 | Marion Faye journal | |||
115 | 114 | (My journal) Arrogance | |||
116 | 115 | Humor is more than wit | |||
117 | 116 | Marion Faye’s note | |||
118 | 117 | Man may be terrible | |||
119 | 118 | The fear of being ridiculous | |||
120 | 119 | Toward the end of Marion | |||
121 | 120 | Marion Faye’s note about | |||
122 | 121 | Any art-work which | |||
123 | 122 | “Do you know, Sergius?” | |||
124 | 123 | Dorothea O’Faye could figure |
December 31, 1954
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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125 | 124 | I am getting whole bodies | |||
126 | 125 | Thoughts. All thoughts in words | Note. | ||
127 | 126 | People who make love | |||
128 | 127 | Get a tape recorder | Note. [add tea time info] still needed | ||
129 | 128 | Word echoes: We have | |||
130 | 129 | On the understanding of genius | |||
131 | 130 | Word echoes. Mother and smother | |||
132 | 131 | Seriously, truly, just simply | |||
133 | 132 | In Marion Faye’s journal | |||
134 | 133 | Jazz is more creative | |||
135 | 134 | I used to be outwardly | |||
136 | 135 | Years ago, working with Malaquais | |||
137 | 136 | The world allows us to express | |||
138 | 137 | My ambition remains | |||
139 | 138 | I think that the new | |||
140 | 139 | Sexual psychopathy would be normal | Note. | ||
141 | 140 | What I learn about The Deer Park | |||
142 | 141 | Most celebrities are people | |||
143 | 142 | Marion Faye’s journal | |||
144 | 143 | Anyone reading these notes | |||
145 | 144 | At the point where Eitel | |||
146 | 145 | The universe is a vast puzzle | |||
147 | 146 | In N.Y. if we want | Note. | ||
148 | 147 | Time is the sense of society | |||
149 | 148 | The so-called decadent writers | |||
150 | 149 | Wild thought. The atom bomb | Note. | ||
151 | 150 | Don Beda should be | |||
152 | 151 | What Stalinists see | |||
153 | 152 | Don Beda should be | |||
154 | 153 | Time as the sense of society | Hand-written note not included. | ||
155 | 154 | Bob Lindner. As he reads | Notes. | ||
156 | 155 | The homo-erotic corollary | Notes. | ||
157 | 156 | The corollary of this | Note. | ||
158 | 157 | What courage Adele has | Notes. | ||
159 | 158 | What terrifies me is exactly | |||
160 | 159 | The fuck novel, “Antacid Analgesique.” | Note. |
January 3, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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161 | 160 | If this record is to have | |||
162 | 161 | One of the curious effects | |||
163 | 162 | What I dislike so much | |||
164 | 163 | Perhaps a man kills | |||
165 | 164 | With Marion Faye this took | |||
166 | 165 | A psychopath expands | |||
167 | 166 | Any human scene | |||
168 | 167 | Precise speech appeals | |||
169 | 168 | Our fear of ghosts | |||
170 | 169 | On the other hand | |||
171 | 170 | The sensitivity spectrum | Note. | ||
172 | 171 | Does telepathic mean sick telepathy? | |||
173 | 172 | On television, many of the ads | |||
174 | 173 | There is also the possibility | |||
175 | 174 | Listening to Dizzy Gillespie | Note. | ||
176 | 175 | Word echoes | |||
177 | 176 | I suspect that an index | |||
178 | 177 | Psychopathic love | |||
179 | 178 | Consider whether Elena after | |||
180 | 179 | Sports and sex | |||
181 | 180 | Musicians. The saxophonist | |||
182 | 181 | Steve Allen talking while | Note. | ||
183 | 182 | I heard “The Star-Spangled Banner” | |||
184 | 183 | Competition of personality marks | |||
185 | 184 | Name for a Negro | |||
186 | 185 | Be-bop chorus | |||
187 | 186 | We may all have a social | Notes. | ||
188 | 187 | Perhaps the secret | Note. | ||
189 | 188 | This is the age | |||
190 | 189 | Memory may be a layer | Mailer underlined the first two sentences and wrote “Expand” in the margin. | ||
191 | 190 | There’s no such thing | |||
192 | 191 | How do you like my | |||
193 | 192 | Fatty foods are cunt foods | |||
194 | 193 | Bob told the pickle factory joke | |||
195 | 194 | Obscenity substitutes | |||
196 | 195 | Obscenity echoes | |||
197 | 196 | In Barbary Shore I planted |
January 20, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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198 | 197 | The poor drawing | |||
199 | 198 | Looking at myself | Note. | ||
200 | 199 | This is the age | Notes. | ||
201 | 200 | When we run across | Note. | ||
202 | 201 | The tragic air of Mexico | Note. | ||
203 | 202 | Rich boys are proud | |||
204 | 203 | “Instants” and “moments” | |||
205 | 204 | John Walsh is a homosexual | Note. NM wrote “expand” in the margin-left of the last paragraph. | ||
206 | 205 | If I have qualities of genius | |||
207 | 206 | The Perfect Secretary | See NM’s written gloss. | ||
208 | 207 | The night Bob spoke | Note. | ||
209 | 208 | The affected person | |||
210 | 209 | How much real hatred | |||
211 | 210 | What we do on the surface | |||
212 | 211 | Homeostasis may be true | (partial) | ||
213 | 212 | Our perception of others | |||
214 | 213 | Word echoes. Son is sin |
January 24, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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215 | 214 | Word echoes. Possible way | |||
216 | 215 | Friday, Saturday, and Sunday | Note. | ||
217 | 216 | To begin with, one | Notes. | ||
218 | 217 | How I’m getting to love | |||
219 | 218 | Spies are takers | |||
220 | 219 | Thoughts about The Deer Park | |||
221 | 220 | When Elena is first introduced | |||
222 | 221 | Wrestlers and boxers | |||
223 | 222 | Homeostasis and sociostasis | Note. | ||
224 | 223 | What I have noticed | Note. | ||
225 | 224 | My character. I have always | Notes. | ||
226 | 225 | Remember: The fear of being | |||
227 | 226 | In The Journal of Marion Faye | |||
228 | 227 | The movement of my writing | Should McLeod be glossed? | ||
229 | 228 | I have always been the romantic | |||
230 | 229 | To condemn | L205, L228 | ||
231 | 230 | Our resistance about changing | Note. | ||
232 | 231 | Rojo and ojo | |||
233 | 232 | Man and his dog | |||
234 | 233 | For three years while writing | |||
235 | 234 | Romance and realism | Note. | ||
236 | 235 | The saint and the psychopath | |||
237 | 236 | In the saint-psychopath sense | |||
238 | 237 | This is the best day | |||
239 | 238 | I was deeply instinctively right | |||
240 | 239 | Yet the course of human history | |||
241 | 240 | For years, unknowingly | |||
242 | 241 | Bebop. P and B are sibling consonants | Notes. | ||
244 | 243 | Golfers are people who take | |||
245 | 244 | Put another way, the sociostatic | |||
246 | 245 | But look at the philosophical | |||
247 | 246 | It also suggests that action | |||
248 | 247 | Which leads me to | Note. | ||
249 | 248 | English is so magnificently blunt | |||
250 | 249 | To go back to note 245 | L245 | Notes. | |
251 | 250 | Joyful thought | |||
252 | 251 | Children’s eating | Note. | ||
253 | 252 | Everybody is both male and female | Should NM’s spelling be made consistent: e.g., bi-sexual or bisexual? |
January 25, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
---|---|---|---|---|---|
254 | 253 | The advances in medicine | |||
255 | 254 | The predictor, the prophet | Note. | ||
256 | 255 | The above note | L255 | ||
257 | 256 | Bob is the dishonest man | |||
258 | 257 | I wonder if one doesn’t | |||
259 | 258 | Typing errors | |||
260 | 259 | But I wanted to finish | (partial) | Note. | |
261 | 260 | What I wrote about Sergius | |||
262 | 261 | This Journal in so far | |||
263 | 262 | I realized so many funny | |||
264 | 263 | Since I started this Journal | Notes. | ||
265 | 264 | The sense of time | |||
266 | 265 | Old people don’t slow down | |||
267 | 266 | To continue 265 I wonder | L265 | ||
268 | 268 | The interesting confirmation | L267 | ||
269 | 269 | Fed up. We stuff ourselves | |||
270 | 270 | Radicals. Particularly socialists | |||
271 | 271 | Prose on wings, tra-la, tra-la | L270 | Note. | |
272 | 272 | So, modestly, I see my mission | |||
273 | 273 | Jews hated Hitler violently | |||
274 | 274 | What is a monster? |
January 26, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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275 | 275 | I am coming to believe | |||
276 | 276 | I have noticed in analytic | Note. | ||
277 | 277 | Let me put it this way | Should "basis" be "basic" in sentence 1? | ||
278 | 278 | I know now why I | |||
279 | 279 | Clues, mysteries, puns | |||
280 | 280 | In this sense, we are all | |||
281 | 281 | If the above sounds very fancy | L280 | ||
282 | 282 | Sociostasis and sociostasis | Notes. | ||
283 | 283 | So in that sense | L282 | Note. | |
284 | 284 | Little confirmations of 282 | L282 | ||
285 | 285 | I have to face something | Note. | ||
286 | 286 | Dialogue: Yesterday, Hiram Haydn | Note. | ||
287 | 287 | Word echoes: Go, man, go | |||
288 | 288 | Bob Lindner is in the dramatic | Note. | ||
289 | 289 | Let me try 283 again | L283 | Note. | |
290 | 290 | Now I come back | |||
291 | 291 | The all-out Marxist | |||
292 | 292 | Now, back to 290 | L290, L395 (in note) | Note. | |
293 | 293 | I’m getting exhausted | |||
294 | 294 | One takes in order to understand | |||
295 | 295 | But wrestlers who are givers | |||
296 | 296 | Talk is cheap, action is hard | |||
297 | 297 | Jokes. Argo. | |||
298 | 298 | No wonder I’ve always been | |||
299 | 299 | Back to x Jargon | |||
300 | 300 | B is the first consonant | |||
301 | 301 | Infant and I am faint | |||
302 | 302 | Ant and and | |||
303 | 303 | Obscenities: 69 | |||
304 | 304 | Jazz. Z and s are sibling components | |||
305 | 305 | At this moment I’m sick | |||
306 | 306 | But what a compulsion | L305 | ||
307 | 307 | I’m getting weary | Note. | ||
308 | 308 | Fuck, piss, cock, shit, cunt | |||
309 | 309 | I have heard writers say | |||
310 | 310 | When I was a kid | Note. | ||
311 | 311 | My pompous man again | |||
312 | 312 | It seems obvious that insanity | |||
313 | 313 | Word echoes. Job | |||
314 | 314 | Aristocrats are usually takers |
January 27, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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315 | 315 | As was evident in the notes | |||
316 | 316 | But what is also interesting | |||
317 | 317 | What I distrust of course. | |||
318 | 318 | On the positive side | |||
319 | 319 | Letter echoes: Be | |||
320 | 320 | For some time I have wanted | Note. | ||
321 | 321 | The business of putting | |||
322 | 322 | Corollary. Whenever one reads |
January 31, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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323 | 323 | My birthday today | |||
324 | 324 | A few word echoes | |||
325 | 325 | Give-and-take | |||
326 | 326 | The possibility of other | Notes. | ||
327 | 327 | The voice of radio and recordings | |||
328 | 328 | But, carry this a step further | |||
329 | 329 | One’s own voice | |||
330 | 330 | One other observation | |||
331 | 331 | Mimics are always psychopaths | |||
332 | 332 | Last week I wrote | Search | Note. | |
333 | 333 | I have the feeling these days | How should the 3rd sentence read? | ||
334 | 334 | A great deal of this journal | |||
335 | 335 | Jealousy. But what a mountain | |||
336 | 336 | The cynic | |||
337 | 337 | The conservatism of the female | |||
338 | 338 | Word echoes. Breath, stripped | |||
339 | 339 | Exceptional people | Notes. | ||
340 | 340 | Which brings me to Bob Lidner | Note. | ||
341 | 341 | Page 100 | |||
342 | 342 | Stimulants. My ideas which started | |||
343 | 343 | Fascination keeps us on | |||
344 | 344 | What I neglected to say | |||
345 | 345 | Half-way stations | |||
346 | 346 | Journalists—another variety of psychopath | |||
347 | 347 | An interesting confirmation | |||
348 | 348 | Pro and con—prick and cunt | |||
349 | 349 | The Catholic Church | |||
350 | 350 | Word echoes. The and he | |||
351 | 350A | Word mirrors: | |||
352 | 351 | I cannot say it often enough | Should “od” be corrected? | ||
353 | 352 | Horse-racing. An article | Note. | ||
354 | 353 | Word echoes: Defense | |||
355 | 354 | Word echoes. Good, God | |||
356 | 355 | Good. Go to d, Go | |||
357 | 356 | Modern painting | |||
358 | 357 | The key to Bill Styron’s nature | Note. | ||
359 | 358 | The inter-fecundation is starting | |||
360 | 359 | Which gives an insight into | |||
361 | 360 | I am always inept at arguing | |||
362 | 361 | More typing errors deliver | |||
363 | 362 | God and Jehovah, goal and jail | |||
364 | 363 | Word echo: By—By | |||
365 | 364 | A lot of this is probably | |||
366 | 365 | A corroborating proof | |||
367 | 366 | The reformer’s liberal ideas | |||
368 | 367 | Nat Halper. His work on the Joyce | Note. | ||
369 | 368 | Modern art. Liberals, social democrats | |||
370 | 369 | Elena is a failure | |||
371 | 370 | Cancer. I believe instinctively | |||
372 | 371 | For The Deer Park | |||
373 | 372 | Word echoes: If and Is | |||
374 | 373 | I wrote the last note | |||
375 | 374 | Consonant echoes: X | |||
376 | 375 | The cross was where man | |||
377 | 376 | Adele’s qualities | |||
378 | 377 | The voice | |||
379 | 378 | A note on my Self-Analysis | Notes. Is “sociismus” supposed to be “socialismus” (socialism)? | ||
380 | 379 | Word echoes. Son and sun | |||
381 | 380 | What-the-hell | |||
382 | 381 | Word echoes. Her and err | |||
383 | 382 | What I am doing with letters | |||
384 | 383 | Is W the world? | |||
385 | 384 | Son of a bitch | |||
386 | 385 | Simply, directly, I excited | |||
387 | 386 | Once in a while | |||
388 | 387 | f and v. F is fuck | |||
389 | 388 | I’m getting a little tired now | |||
390 | 389 | Anyway, I think I’ll finish | Notes. |
February 1, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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391 | 390 | Today makes two months | |||
392 | 391 | Last night, having dinner | |||
393 | 392 | Later, today, if I can | |||
394 | 393 | What appears to me right | |||
395 | 394 | Word echoes. (I suppose | |||
396 | 395 | Another word echo here | |||
397 | 396 | The Burglar again | |||
398 | 397 | Disagreeable as it is | Notes. | ||
399 | 398 | I suppose the last note | |||
400 | 399 | To finish note 390 | 390 | Notes. | |
401 | 400 | One addition to this | |||
402 | 401 | Back from lunch | |||
403 | 402 | A comment on the above | 402 | ||
404 | 403 | At the other end | Note. | ||
405 | 404 | The Catholic would argue | Note. | ||
406 | 405 | I may have a clue | |||
407 | 406 | Word echoes. I’ve discussed jazz | |||
408 | 407 | If my identification of red | |||
409 | 408 | Gate. And r: Great. | |||
410 | 409 | The strength of the Church. | Note. | ||
411 | 410 | A note on my father. | Note. | ||
412 | 411 | And now I understand Monroe | Note. | ||
413 | 412 | On how I can’t destroy love. | Note. | ||
414 | 413 | One thing bothers me. | |||
415 | 414 | A lay analyst. | |||
416 | 415 | I have a hunch | |||
417 | 416 | My sexual scar. | |||
418 | 417 | Depression is coming on | |||
419 | 418 | Perhaps the sexual explanation | |||
420 | 419 | Jesus, I’d rather be | |||
421 | 420 | A little interesting and | |||
422 | 421 | Decadence. I wonder | |||
423 | 422 | The above note was written | 422 | ||
424 | 423 | Echoes and opposites. | |||
425 | 424 | The spectrum of the saint-psychopath. | Note. | ||
426 | 425 | The above not ought | 425 | ||
427 | 426 | Before I quit, I want to list |
February 2, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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428 | 427 | Continuing on H | |||
429 | 428 | The horrible thought occurs | |||
430 | 429 | The artist and his paranoia. | |||
431 | 430 | Note 214 was about the | 215 | ||
432 | 431 | It is really incredible that | |||
433 | 432 | Each of the Church’s dictums | |||
434 | 433 | The gambler’s debt | |||
435 | 434 | I’ve spent the last few hours | Notes. Where should the open parenthesis end? I don’t see the last sentence in the original. |
February 7, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
---|---|---|---|---|---|
436 | 435 | The opening into myself | The first parenthesis does not close. | ||
437 | 436 | One idea in this | Text added to 436. | ||
438 | 436 | The intellectual is antipathetic | |||
439 | 437 | At any rate each time | |||
440 | 438 | I have to explain what | |||
441 | 439 | But I go at this | |||
442 | 440 | Besides I may discover | |||
443 | 441 | Anyway, let’s go back | |||
444 | 442 | Parenthesis after parenthesis | |||
445 | 443 | The anarchist as he exists | |||
446 | 444 | But, again, back to give-and-take | |||
447 | 445 | Now, give-san-take | |||
448 | 446 | Give-and take is the secret | |||
449 | 447 | Marriage, every marriage | |||
450 | 448 | Up and down, in and out | |||
451 | 449 | The world of commerce | |||
452 | 450 | Action is one of the enigmas | |||
453 | 451 | Yet to stay alive we | |||
454 | 451 | Let me put it another way | |||
455 | 452 | So, a partial justification | |||
456 | 453 | Just above I wrote 42 | |||
457 | 454 | Perhaps the clue | |||
458 | 455 | The crook in Bob Lindner | Note. | ||
459 | 456 | Sesame. The sex of me | |||
460 | 457 | But why can I understand | Note. | ||
461 | 458 | After lunch, and how | |||
462 | 459 | Crooks are interested | Note. | ||
463 | 460 | What I started to say | |||
464 | 461 | Japanese: Their word for yes | |||
465 | 462 | Chinese: A very primitive language | |||
466 | 463 | I’m one of the first | Note. | ||
467 | 464 | There is so much to be said | |||
468 | 465 | The art of the playwright | Note. | ||
469 | 466 | Beating and being | |||
470 | 467 | German. The Germans are philosophers | |||
471 | 469 | Anyway, the Germans | Note. | ||
472 | 470 | eeeeeeeeeeeeeee | |||
473 | 471 | V becomes closer | |||
474 | 472 | Double V is WW | |||
475 | 473 | VVVVVVV is close | |||
476 | 474 | Vomiting. I see | |||
477 | 475 | Mother. The masculine other | |||
478 | 476 | Er would be a far | |||
479 | 477 | Super. To sup and to er | |||
480 | 478 | I’m getting tired again | |||
481 | 479 | But I haven’t even begun | Note. | ||
482 | 480 | Any rationalist reading | |||
483 | 481 | For the first time I | |||
484 | 482 | In the middle of the cliché | |||
485 | 483 | But I just can’t get | |||
486 | 484 | Let’s start with orgasm | |||
487 | 485 | To attempt to go on | |||
488 | 486 | To be continued tomorrow | |||
489 | 486a | Before I go on with | |||
490 | 487 | So, if my premise | Note. | ||
491 | 488 | I keep trying to write | |||
492 | 489 | Which is why I have | |||
493 | 490 | Mom. A cunt O | |||
494 | 491 | I’ve spent the last | 423 | ||
495 | 492 | Following my Clue | |||
496 | 493 | Back to bisexuals | |||
497 | 494 | So, the bisexual in society | |||
498 | 495 | I’m getting hipped | |||
499 | 496 | The next “idea” | |||
500 | 497 | What characterizes the power-mad | |||
501 | 498 | I’ve just been out for lunch | |||
502 | 496 | This has all been a preface | 499 | ||
503 | 497 | At any rate, I still believe | |||
504 | 498 | And, of course, the little | ^ | ||
505 | 499 | What a jewel of a word | |||
506 | 500 | But what remains | Note. | ||
507 | 501 | The cop is getting stronger | |||
508 | 502 | I’ve got to shake this off | |||
509 | 503 | The family dinner | |||
510 | 504 | I don’t have the patience | |||
511 | 505 | Dynamo. Dine at mom’s | |||
512 | 506 | While we’re on consonants | |||
513 | 507 | Example: Formalize (Fuck of | |||
514 | 508 | From time to time I worry | |||
515 | 509 | Course of events | |||
516 | 510 | I have postulated unisexuality | Note. | ||
517 | 511 | We and Us | |||
518 | 512 | World. It is a prettier | |||
519 | 513 | But ‘rectal’ I’m sure | |||
520 | 514 | RL again. Relish | |||
521 | 515 | The difficulty in consonant | |||
522 | 516 | An old cliché is called | |||
523 | 517 | Regal—egal | |||
524 | 518 | Acts of the body | |||
525 | 519 | The is and the ing. | |||
526 | 520 | When an intelligent person | Note. | ||
527 | 521 | Adele gets furious these days | |||
528 | 522 | Actually, there’s no contradiction | Note. | ||
529 | 523 | But this opens the peculiar | |||
530 | 524 | Excelsior! Hardons onward | |||
531 | 525 | Excelsior: What I’m getting at | |||
532 | 526 | Now, of course, an analyst | |||
533 | 527 | Yet, we cannot deny it | |||
534 | 528 | I’m very dissatisfied | |||
535 | 529 | Time is Number | |||
536 | 530 | Toynbee’s challenge | |||
537 | 531 | We and wee | |||
538 | 532 | The beggar-king | |||
539 | 533 | The reason the common people | |||
540 | 534 | And so the enigma | |||
541 | 535 | And that is why certain | |||
542 | 536 | A dick is a cock | |||
543 | 537 | Twot. The thing of what? | |||
544 | 538 | Man and society | |||
545 | 539 | I just realized that the reason | Note. | ||
546 | 540 | Anybody who’s really | |||
547 | 541 | I have to explore | |||
548 | 542 | Hemingway’s peculiar weakness | |||
549 | 543 | Depressants and stimulants | |||
550 | 544 | The above was hardly | |||
551 | 545 | So, to begin with, | |||
552 | 546 | I’m written out |
February 10, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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553 | 547 | A new typewriter ribbon | |||
554 | 548 | Today is L plus 1 | |||
555 | 549 | But what I want to try | |||
556 | 550 | This can help to explain | |||
557 | 551 | For the analyst and the analysand | |||
558 | 552 | I have come to a conclusion | Note. | ||
559 | 553 | The fluoridation of water | |||
560 | 554 | Investigating the consonants | |||
561 | 555 | On the vowels | |||
562 | 556 | I have an idea | Note. |
February 14, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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563 | 557 | Again I start work | |||
564 | 558 | The kick-off was | Note. | ||
565 | 559 | I have not warmed up | |||
566 | 560 | I’ve come up with something | |||
567 | 561 | For days I’ve been working | |||
568 | 562 | A lover of music | |||
569 | 563 | But I am the person | |||
570 | 564 | It can be stated | |||
571 | 565 | Pain and pleasure | |||
572 | 566 | “Stupid” people find | Note. | ||
573 | 565 | Antacid Analgesic | Note. | ||
574 | 566 | What a title | Note. | ||
575 | 567 | Yes, I am a rationalist | |||
576 | 568 | And isn’t that the Devil? | |||
577 | 569 | My nose has stopped running | |||
578 | 570 | A truly great man | |||
579 | 571 | Ruthless and Truthful | |||
580 | 572 | What I’ve been avoiding | |||
581 | 573 | I got the D.T.’s | |||
582 | 574 | Last night taking my Seconal | |||
583 | 575 | What bothered me about | Notes. | ||
584 | 576 | Kill or be killed | |||
585 | 577 | Ted Amussen cannot express | Notes. | ||
586 | 578 | The and He | |||
587 | 579 | Antacid Analgesic is filled | |||
588 | 580 | P, I believe, signifies | |||
589 | 581 | Energy spent on solving | |||
590 | 582 | The curve is life | |||
591 | 583 | Classicist and Romantic | |||
592 | 584 | Last night on the train | |||
593 | 585 | My throat is sore again | |||
594 | 586 | Patience and impatience | |||
595 | 587 | The reason this journal | |||
596 | 588 | To understand a neurotic | |||
597 | 589 | (ENTERING_and_LEAVING) | |||
598 | 590 | Impatience—patience | |||
599 | 591 | I’m really beginning to dig | |||
600 | 592 | The malfunction of entering-leaving | |||
601 | 592 | The phallic-narcissist (Jim Jones) | |||
602 | 593 | Back from lunch | |||
603 | 593 | But another revelatory contradiction | |||
604 | 594 | “Freedom is the recognition | |||
605 | 595 | I don’t know if I agree | 604 | ||
606 | 596 | Let me make as assumption | |||
607 | 597 | Yet, this is still true | |||
608 | 598 | Which is where an understanding | Note. | ||
609 | 599 | I lost weight all last summer | |||
610 | 600 | I wonder if once smoking | |||
611 | 601 | The rationalist says | |||
612 | 602 | What I suspect about Lipton’s | |||
613 | 603 | My sore throat seems gone | Note. | ||
614 | 604 | One healthy thing I am | |||
615 | 605 | The part and the whole | |||
616 | 606 | As I said to Bob | |||
617 | 607 | Reason, the logic on One | |||
618 | 608 | One thing to say | |||
619 | 609 | A thousand things yet |
February 21, 1955
# | NM# | First Words | x-Refs | Cut | Notes |
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620 | 610 | Avery (Men with the name | |||
621 | 611 | Here we go again | |||
622 | 612 | Out of curiosity | |||
623 | 613 | I truly have the feeling | |||
624 | 614 | The reason I believe | |||
625 | 615 | Saw Mutiny on the Bounty | Notes. | ||
626 | 616 | And Laughton | |||
627 | 617 | Over and over I come | |||
628 | 618 | Sup, x er, lerve, and the Juggler | |||
629 | 619 | Back to Laughton | Notes. | ||
630 | 620 | A few word echoes | |||
631 | 621 | My sore throat | |||
632 | 622 | I have an enormously tense | |||
633 | 623 | Cigarette smoking | |||
634 | 624 | The cigarette is society’s substitute | |||
635 | 624 | A shit-eating grin | |||
636 | 625 | Before I go to lunch | |||
637 | 626 | Hatred is the defense | |||
638 | 627 | Semen. How it appears everywhere | |||
639 | 628 | Milk. Another semen-substitute | |||
640 | 629 | Last night I caught a piece | Note. | ||
641 | 630 | Tears and semen | Note. | ||
642 | 631 | I realized during lunch | |||
643 | 632 | Psychoanalyzing names | |||
644 | 633 | Homosexuality | Note. | ||
645 | 634 | The Burglar [Edmund Bergler] | |||
646 | 635 | The phallic narcissist | |||
647 | 636 | All day I have been holding | |||
648 | 635 | There, Now, I like him again | |||
649 | 636 | What’s in a name | |||
650 | 637 | Three and tree | |||
651 | 638 | Out of sight, out of mind | |||
652 | 639 | I have a feeling that | |||
653 | 635 | What occurs to me | |||
654 | 636 | Over the weekend I took | Note. | ||
655 | 637 | An article in Scientific American | |||
656 | 638 | Word echoes and tag lines |
February 22, 1955
March 4, 1955
Questions
- What do we want to do with omitted entry numbers? Just skip them? Or should they be included in the digital version but not the printed?
- Are the numbers on Donna’s transcript the new, correct numbers? (I know Mike said that Mailer mis-numbered some entries.)
- Should each entry date have its own index page? Perhaps each numbered entry could be summarized here?
- Should each numbered entry should have its own (sub)page? I think yes.
- Should each numbered entry have a title other than a number? Each could have a shortcut, so if the title is
Lipton’s Journal/December 1, 1954/1
, the shortcut could beLJ1
or justL1
. - Should we categorize numbered entries? Thematically? Style of entry?