Talk:Lipton’s Journal

Entry Dates

December 1, 1954

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Notes
L1	1	Perhaps the artist is less
2	2	Lipton's seems to open one
3	3	Fucking is perhaps an approach
4	4	In relation to (1)	L1	Note.
5	5	The concentration camp novel		Note. Unclear x-ref # in note.
6	6	One should always listen attentively		Note.
7	7	Herbert A[ptheker]. said of Lipton’s		Note.
8	8	In modern jazz, one feels		Note.
9	9	Thoreau’s beautiful remark		Note.
10	10	I upset Herbert [Aptheker] by saying
11	11	In a short novel		Note.

December 8, 1954

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Notes
12	12	One should always try to
13	13	It seems to me that
14	14	It is possible that many		Note.
15	15	All of my life with Adele
16	16	If there is that other world
17	17	Listening to a child
18	18	I advertise to everyone
19	19	Six and Four are close
20	20	Knowledge is systematized ignorance
21	21	A novel is slowly emerging
22	22	It may be that the
23	23	In the conc. camp novel	L17
24	24	There may actually be such
25	25	Every word sets up	L24	Note.
26	26	Television may have some extraordinary		Note.
27	27	Possibly the spasmodic nervous system
28	28	Vomiting may be the orgasm
29	29	No saint can be a teacher
30	30	Infants may be enormously wise
31	31	The saint and the psychopath		Note.
32	32	No one is more unreligious
33	33	Medicine may be witchcraft		end: [and] its emphasis on progress.
34	34	The aggressive instinct
35	35	Psychoanalysis, liberalism, etc. etc.
36	36	I have learned more from
37	37	In The Deer Park after the		Note.
38	38	If the more saintly people
39	39	In a Collier’s article		Note.
40	40	Words are not entirely bad
41	41	Death may be the price
42	42	I know nothing about semantics
43	43	Talk with Rhoda L.		Note.

December 17, 1954

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Notes
44	44	The saint and the churchman
45	45	There is no death-instinct
46	46	What worries me today
47	47	Spengler is a great writer	L48	Notes.
48	48	Swing in jazz is different
49	49	When Susie speaks of “war”
50	50	There is a lesson for me	L47
51	51	A remark on why psychoanalysts
52	52	When the businessman thinks
53	53	Perhaps the reason Susy		Note.
54	54	I understand now what Danny		Notes.
55	55	The word is a flat
56	56	In the larger sense		Note.
57	57	The Stalinists have sneered		Note.
58	58	My characters in The Deer Park
59	58	Equations: Man is born		Added punctuation in ¶3.
60	59	The big novel could		Note.
61	60	I learned a practical matter
62	61	I have always hated sentimentality
63	62	The measurement of time
64	63	Advertising and television and radio		Note.
65	64	Because the desire for material
66	65	Almost always experts can never

December 28, 1954

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Cut	Notes
67	66	At its best, my mind
68	67	Over and over again

December 29, 1954

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Cut	Notes
69	68	“Vested interest” is enormously more
70	69	Get beneath words		(partial)
71	70	The gossip is the great
72	71	Words have not only echoes
73	72	The concealments of language
74	73	The sensual is the soul’s
75	74	The Sense of the Past
76	75	There are two kinds of hatred
77	76	The power of the word			Note.
78	77	They key to Sergius’ character
79	78	The breakup with Lulu			Note.
80	79	Jokes. Charley Wiener just said			Note needed?: Charley Wiener
81	80	Eitel in court			Note.
82	81	In error there is also truth
83	82	Eitel and Elena—last chapter			Note. Use partial w/ L81, too.
84	83	Don Beda			Note.
85	84	Interpretations of present events			Notes.
86	85	My feeling about semantics	L42		Note.
87	86	One thing must be said	L85, L71
88	87	Stories of dreams
89	88	Bombing as the great shitting
90	89	Comedians and comic writers
91	90	Women who always hate
92	91	The more knowledge
93	92	Possibly, bad works of art
94	93	The spy (another adventurer)			Note.
95	94	Actors and spies
96	95	When a friend says
97	96	“Am I boring you?”
98	97	So, boredom, depression, laughter
99	98	Saints and psychopaths
100	99	Laughter is spiritual
101	100	The psychopath sees the present
102	101	So the hipster is the adventurer
103	102	Given my intellectual verbal mind
104	103	A possibility occurs to me			Note.
105	104	Marion Faye note
106	105	Note 103 could be	L103		Could the x-ref actually be L105?
107	106	Marion Faye note			Note.
108	107	Marion Faye on Eitel
109	108	Marion Faye in prison
110	109	Sergius is my brother
111	110	Marion F Journal
112	111	My journal again
113	112	False humility			Seems like this should not be cut, as L115 alludes to it.
114	113	Marion Faye journal
115	114	(My journal) Arrogance
116	115	Humor is more than wit
117	116	Marion Faye’s note
118	117	Man may be terrible
119	118	The fear of being ridiculous
120	119	Toward the end of Marion
121	120	Marion Faye’s note about
122	121	Any art-work which
123	122	“Do you know, Sergius?”
124	123	Dorothea O’Faye could figure

December 31, 1954

#	NM#	First Words	Notes
125	124	I am getting whole bodies
126	125	Thoughts. All thoughts in words	Note.
127	126	People who make love
128	127	Get a tape recorder	Note. [add tea time info] still needed
129	128	Word echoes: We have
130	129	On the understanding of genius
131	130	Word echoes. Mother and smother
132	131	Seriously, truly, just simply
133	132	In Marion Faye’s journal
134	133	Jazz is more creative
135	134	I used to be outwardly
136	135	Years ago, working with Malaquais
137	136	The world allows us to express
138	137	My ambition remains
139	138	I think that the new
140	139	Sexual psychopathy would be normal	Note.
141	140	What I learn about The Deer Park
142	141	Most celebrities are people
143	142	Marion Faye’s journal
144	143	Anyone reading these notes
145	144	At the point where Eitel
146	145	The universe is a vast puzzle
147	146	In N.Y. if we want	Note.
148	147	Time is the sense of society
149	148	The so-called decadent writers
150	149	Wild thought. The atom bomb	Note.
151	150	Don Beda should be
152	151	What Stalinists see
153	152	Don Beda should be
154	153	Time as the sense of society	Hand-written note not included.
155	154	Bob Lindner. As he reads	Notes.
156	155	The homo-erotic corollary	Notes.
157	156	The corollary of this	Note.
158	157	What courage Adele has	Notes.
159	158	What terrifies me is exactly
160	159	The fuck novel, “Antacid Analgesique.”	Note.

January 3, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	Notes
161	160	If this record is to have
162	161	One of the curious effects
163	162	What I dislike so much
164	163	Perhaps a man kills
165	164	With Marion Faye this took
166	165	A psychopath expands
167	166	Any human scene
168	167	Precise speech appeals
169	168	Our fear of ghosts
170	169	On the other hand
171	170	The sensitivity spectrum	Note.
172	171	Does telepathic mean sick telepathy?
173	172	On television, many of the ads
174	173	There is also the possibility
175	174	Listening to Dizzy Gillespie	Note.
176	175	Word echoes
177	176	I suspect that an index
178	177	Psychopathic love
179	178	Consider whether Elena after
180	179	Sports and sex
181	180	Musicians. The saxophonist
182	181	Steve Allen talking while	Note.
183	182	I heard “The Star-Spangled Banner”
184	183	Competition of personality marks
185	184	Name for a Negro
186	185	Be-bop chorus
187	186	We may all have a social	Notes.
188	187	Perhaps the secret	Note.
189	188	This is the age
190	189	Memory may be a layer	Mailer underlined the first two sentences and wrote “Expand” in the margin.
191	190	There’s no such thing
192	191	How do you like my
193	192	Fatty foods are cunt foods
194	193	Bob told the pickle factory joke
195	194	Obscenity substitutes
196	195	Obscenity echoes
197	196	In Barbary Shore I planted

January 20, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	Cut	Notes
198	197	The poor drawing
199	198	Looking at myself		Note.
200	199	This is the age		Notes.
201	200	When we run across		Note.
202	201	The tragic air of Mexico		Note.
203	202	Rich boys are proud
204	203	“Instants” and “moments”
205	204	John Walsh is a homosexual		Note. NM wrote “expand” in the margin-left of the last paragraph.
206	205	If I have qualities of genius
207	206	The Perfect Secretary		See NM’s written gloss.
208	207	The night Bob spoke		Note.
209	208	The affected person
210	209	How much real hatred
211	210	What we do on the surface
212	211	Homeostasis may be true	(partial)
213	212	Our perception of others
214	213	Word echoes. Son is sin

January 24, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Notes
215	214	Word echoes. Possible way
216	215	Friday, Saturday, and Sunday		Note.
217	216	To begin with, one		Notes.
218	217	How I’m getting to love
219	218	Spies are takers
220	219	Thoughts about The Deer Park
221	220	When Elena is first introduced
222	221	Wrestlers and boxers
223	222	Homeostasis and sociostasis		Note.
224	223	What I have noticed		Note.
225	224	My character. I have always		Notes.
226	225	Remember: The fear of being
227	226	In The Journal of Marion Faye
228	227	The movement of my writing		Should McLeod be glossed?
229	228	I have always been the romantic
230	229	To condemn	L205, L228
231	230	Our resistance about changing		Note.
232	231	Rojo and ojo
233	232	Man and his dog
234	233	For three years while writing
235	234	Romance and realism		Note.
236	235	The saint and the psychopath
237	236	In the saint-psychopath sense
238	237	This is the best day
239	238	I was deeply instinctively right
240	239	Yet the course of human history
241	240	For years, unknowingly
242	241	Bebop. P and B are sibling consonants		Notes.
244	243	Golfers are people who take
245	244	Put another way, the sociostatic
246	245	But look at the philosophical
247	246	It also suggests that action
248	247	Which leads me to		Note.
249	248	English is so magnificently blunt
250	249	To go back to note 245	L245	Notes.
251	250	Joyful thought
252	251	Children’s eating		Note.
253	252	Everybody is both male and female		Should NM’s spelling be made consistent: e.g., bi-sexual or bisexual?

January 25, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Cut	Notes
254	253	The advances in medicine
255	254	The predictor, the prophet			Note.
256	255	The above note	L255
257	256	Bob is the dishonest man
258	257	I wonder if one doesn’t
259	258	Typing errors
260	259	But I wanted to finish		(partial)	Note.
261	260	What I wrote about Sergius
262	261	This Journal in so far
263	262	I realized so many funny
264	263	Since I started this Journal			Notes.
265	264	The sense of time
266	265	Old people don’t slow down
267	266	To continue 265 I wonder	L265
268	268	The interesting confirmation	L267
269	269	Fed up. We stuff ourselves
270	270	Radicals. Particularly socialists
271	271	Prose on wings, tra-la, tra-la	L270		Note.
272	272	So, modestly, I see my mission
273	273	Jews hated Hitler violently
274	274	What is a monster?

January 26, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Notes
275	275	I am coming to believe
276	276	I have noticed in analytic		Note.
277	277	Let me put it this way		Should "basis" be "basic" in sentence 1?
278	278	I know now why I
279	279	Clues, mysteries, puns
280	280	In this sense, we are all
281	281	If the above sounds very fancy	L280
282	282	Sociostasis and sociostasis		Notes.
283	283	So in that sense	L282	Note.
284	284	Little confirmations of 282	L282
285	285	I have to face something		Note.
286	286	Dialogue: Yesterday, Hiram Haydn		Note.
287	287	Word echoes: Go, man, go
288	288	Bob Lindner is in the dramatic		Note.
289	289	Let me try 283 again	L283	Note.
290	290	Now I come back
291	291	The all-out Marxist
292	292	Now, back to 290	L290, L395 (in note)	Note.
293	293	I’m getting exhausted
294	294	One takes in order to understand
295	295	But wrestlers who are givers
296	296	Talk is cheap, action is hard
297	297	Jokes. Argo.
298	298	No wonder I’ve always been
299	299	Back to x Jargon
300	300	B is the first consonant
301	301	Infant and I am faint
302	302	Ant and and
303	303	Obscenities: 69
304	304	Jazz. Z and s are sibling components
305	305	At this moment I’m sick
306	306	But what a compulsion	L305
307	307	I’m getting weary		Note.
308	308	Fuck, piss, cock, shit, cunt
309	309	I have heard writers say
310	310	When I was a kid		Note.
311	311	My pompous man again
312	312	It seems obvious that insanity
313	313	Word echoes. Job
314	314	Aristocrats are usually takers

January 27, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	Notes
315	315	As was evident in the notes
316	316	But what is also interesting
317	317	What I distrust of course.
318	318	On the positive side
319	319	Letter echoes: Be
320	320	For some time I have wanted	Note.
321	321	The business of putting
322	322	Corollary. Whenever one reads

January 31, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Notes
323	323	My birthday today
324	324	A few word echoes
325	325	Give-and-take
326	326	The possibility of other		Notes.
327	327	The voice of radio and recordings
328	328	But, carry this a step further
329	329	One’s own voice
330	330	One other observation
331	331	Mimics are always psychopaths
332	332	Last week I wrote	Search	Note.
333	333	I have the feeling these days		How should the 3rd sentence read?
334	334	A great deal of this journal
335	335	Jealousy. But what a mountain
336	336	The cynic
337	337	The conservatism of the female
338	338	Word echoes. Breath, stripped
339	339	Exceptional people		Notes.
340	340	Which brings me to Bob Lidner		Note.
341	341	Page 100
342	342	Stimulants. My ideas which started
343	343	Fascination keeps us on
344	344	What I neglected to say
345	345	Half-way stations
346	346	Journalists—another variety of psychopath
347	347	An interesting confirmation
348	348	Pro and con—prick and cunt
349	349	The Catholic Church
350	350	Word echoes. The and he
351	350A	Word mirrors:
352	351	I cannot say it often enough		Should “od” be corrected?
353	352	Horse-racing. An article		Note.
354	353	Word echoes: Defense
355	354	Word echoes. Good, God
356	355	Good. Go to d, Go
357	356	Modern painting
358	357	The key to Bill Styron’s nature		Note.
359	358	The inter-fecundation is starting
360	359	Which gives an insight into
361	360	I am always inept at arguing
362	361	More typing errors deliver
363	362	God and Jehovah, goal and jail
364	363	Word echo: By—By
365	364	A lot of this is probably
366	365	A corroborating proof
367	366	The reformer’s liberal ideas
368	367	Nat Halper. His work on the Joyce		Note.
369	368	Modern art. Liberals, social democrats
370	369	Elena is a failure
371	370	Cancer. I believe instinctively
372	371	For The Deer Park
373	372	Word echoes: If and Is
374	373	I wrote the last note
375	374	Consonant echoes: X
376	375	The cross was where man
377	376	Adele’s qualities
378	377	The voice
379	378	A note on my Self-Analysis		Notes. Is “sociismus” supposed to be “socialismus” (socialism)?
380	379	Word echoes. Son and sun
381	380	What-the-hell
382	381	Word echoes. Her and err
383	382	What I am doing with letters
384	383	Is W the world?
385	384	Son of a bitch
386	385	Simply, directly, I excited
387	386	Once in a while
388	387	f and v. F is fuck
389	388	I’m getting a little tired now
390	389	Anyway, I think I’ll finish		Notes.

February 1, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Notes
391	390	Today makes two months
392	391	Last night, having dinner
393	392	Later, today, if I can
394	393	What appears to me right
395	394	Word echoes. (I suppose
396	395	Another word echo here
397	396	The Burglar again
398	397	Disagreeable as it is		Notes.
399	398	I suppose the last note
400	399	To finish note 390	390	Notes.
401	400	One addition to this
402	401	Back from lunch
403	402	A comment on the above	402
404	403	At the other end		Note.
405	404	The Catholic would argue		Note.
406	405	I may have a clue
407	406	Word echoes. I’ve discussed jazz
408	407	If my identification of red
409	408	Gate. And r: Great.
410	409	The strength of the Church.		Note.
411	410	A note on my father.		Note.
412	411	And now I understand Monroe		Note.
413	412	On how I can’t destroy love.		Note.
414	413	One thing bothers me.
415	414	A lay analyst.
416	415	I have a hunch
417	416	My sexual scar.
418	417	Depression is coming on
419	418	Perhaps the sexual explanation
420	419	Jesus, I’d rather be
421	420	A little interesting and
422	421	Decadence. I wonder
423	422	The above note was written	422
424	423	Echoes and opposites.
425	424	The spectrum of the saint-psychopath.		Note.
426	425	The above not ought	425
427	426	Before I quit, I want to list

February 2, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Notes
428	427	Continuing on H
429	428	The horrible thought occurs
430	429	The artist and his paranoia.
431	430	Note 214 was about the	215
432	431	It is really incredible that
433	432	Each of the Church’s dictums
434	433	The gambler’s debt
435	434	I’ve spent the last few hours		Notes. Where should the open parenthesis end? I don’t see the last sentence in the original.

February 7, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Cut	Notes
436	435	The opening into myself			The first parenthesis does not close.
437	436	One idea in this			Text added to 436.
438	436	The intellectual is antipathetic
439	437	At any rate each time
440	438	I have to explain what
441	439	But I go at this
442	440	Besides I may discover
443	441	Anyway, let’s go back
444	442	Parenthesis after parenthesis
445	443	The anarchist as he exists
446	444	But, again, back to give-and-take
447	445	Now, give-san-take
448	446	Give-and take is the secret
449	447	Marriage, every marriage
450	448	Up and down, in and out
451	449	The world of commerce
452	450	Action is one of the enigmas
453	451	Yet to stay alive we
454	451	Let me put it another way
455	452	So, a partial justification
456	453	Just above I wrote 42
457	454	Perhaps the clue
458	455	The crook in Bob Lindner			Note.
459	456	Sesame. The sex of me
460	457	But why can I understand			Note.
461	458	After lunch, and how
462	459	Crooks are interested			Note.
463	460	What I started to say
464	461	Japanese: Their word for yes
465	462	Chinese: A very primitive language
466	463	I’m one of the first			Note.
467	464	There is so much to be said
468	465	The art of the playwright			Note.
469	466	Beating and being
470	467	German. The Germans are philosophers
471	469	Anyway, the Germans			Note.
472	470	eeeeeeeeeeeeeee
473	471	V becomes closer
474	472	Double V is WW
475	473	VVVVVVV is close
476	474	Vomiting. I see
477	475	Mother. The masculine other
478	476	Er would be a far
479	477	Super. To sup and to er
480	478	I’m getting tired again
481	479	But I haven’t even begun			Note.
482	480	Any rationalist reading
483	481	For the first time I
484	482	In the middle of the cliché
485	483	But I just can’t get
486	484	Let’s start with orgasm
487	485	To attempt to go on
488	486	To be continued tomorrow
489	486a	Before I go on with
490	487	So, if my premise			Note.
491	488	I keep trying to write
492	489	Which is why I have
493	490	Mom. A cunt O
494	491	I’ve spent the last	423
495	492	Following my Clue
496	493	Back to bisexuals
497	494	So, the bisexual in society
498	495	I’m getting hipped
499	496	The next “idea”
500	497	What characterizes the power-mad
501	498	I’ve just been out for lunch
502	496	This has all been a preface	499
503	497	At any rate, I still believe
504	498	And, of course, the little		^
505	499	What a jewel of a word
506	500	But what remains			Note.
507	501	The cop is getting stronger
508	502	I’ve got to shake this off
509	503	The family dinner
510	504	I don’t have the patience
511	505	Dynamo. Dine at mom’s
512	506	While we’re on consonants
513	507	Example: Formalize (Fuck of
514	508	From time to time I worry
515	509	Course of events
516	510	I have postulated unisexuality			Note.
517	511	We and Us
518	512	World. It is a prettier
519	513	But ‘rectal’ I’m sure
520	514	RL again. Relish
521	515	The difficulty in consonant
522	516	An old cliché is called
523	517	Regal—egal
524	518	Acts of the body
525	519	The is and the ing.
526	520	When an intelligent person			Note.
527	521	Adele gets furious these days
528	522	Actually, there’s no contradiction			Note.
529	523	But this opens the peculiar
530	524	Excelsior! Hardons onward
531	525	Excelsior: What I’m getting at
532	526	Now, of course, an analyst
533	527	Yet, we cannot deny it
534	528	I’m very dissatisfied
535	529	Time is Number
536	530	Toynbee’s challenge
537	531	We and wee
538	532	The beggar-king
539	533	The reason the common people
540	534	And so the enigma
541	535	And that is why certain
542	536	A dick is a cock
543	537	Twot. The thing of what?
544	538	Man and society
545	539	I just realized that the reason			Note.
546	540	Anybody who’s really
547	541	I have to explore
548	542	Hemingway’s peculiar weakness
549	543	Depressants and stimulants
550	544	The above was hardly
551	545	So, to begin with,
552	546	I’m written out

February 10, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	Notes
553	547	A new typewriter ribbon
554	548	Today is L plus 1
555	549	But what I want to try
556	550	This can help to explain
557	551	For the analyst and the analysand
558	552	I have come to a conclusion	Note.
559	553	The fluoridation of water
560	554	Investigating the consonants
561	555	On the vowels
562	556	I have an idea	Note.

February 14, 1955

#	NM#	First Words	x-Refs	Notes
563	557	Again I start work
564	558	The kick-off was		Note.
565	559	I have not warmed up
566	560	I’ve come up with something
567	561	For days I’ve been working
568	562	A lover of music
569	563	But I am the person
570	564	It can be stated
571	565	Pain and pleasure
572	566	“Stupid” people find		Note.
573	565	Antacid Analgesic		Note.
574	566	What a title		Note.
575	567	Yes, I am a rationalist
576	568	And isn’t that the Devil?
577	569	My nose has stopped running
578	570	A truly great man
579	571	Ruthless and Truthful
580	572	What I’ve been avoiding
581	573	I got the D.T.’s
582	574	Last night taking my Seconal
583	575	What bothered me about
584	576	Kill or be killed
585	577	Ted Amussen cannot express
586	578	The and He
587	579	Antacid Analgesic is filled
588	580	P, I believe, signifies
589	581	Energy spent on solving
590	582	The curve is life
591	583	Classicist and Romantic
592	584	Last night on the train
593	585	My throat is sore again
594	586	Patience and impatience
595	587	The reason this journal
596	588	To understand a neurotic
597	589	(ENTERING_and_LEAVING)
598	590	Impatience—patience
599	591	I’m really beginning to dig
600	592	The malfunction of entering-leaving
601	592	The phallic-narcissist (Jim Jones)
602	593	Back from lunch
603	593	But another revelatory contradiction
604	594	“Freedom is the recognition
605	595	I don’t know if I agree	604
606	596	Let me make as assumption
607	597	Yet, this is still true
608	598	Which is where an understanding
609	599	I lost weight all last summer
610	600	I wonder if once smoking
611	601	The rationalist says
612	602	What I suspect about Lipton’s
613	603	My sore throat seems gone
614	604	One healthy thing I am
615	605	The part and the whole
616	606	As I said to Bob
617	607	Reason, the logic on One
618	608	One thing to say
619	609	A thousand things yet

February 21, 1955

February 22, 1955

March 4, 1955

Questions

What do we want to do with omitted entry numbers? Just skip them? Or should they be included in the digital version but not the printed?
Are the numbers on Donna’s transcript the new, correct numbers? (I know Mike said that Mailer mis-numbered some entries.)
Should each entry date have its own index page? Perhaps each numbered entry could be summarized here?
Should each numbered entry should have its own (sub)page? I think yes.
Should each numbered entry have a title other than a number? Each could have a shortcut, so if the title is Lipton’s Journal/December 1, 1954/1, the shortcut could be LJ1 or just L1.
Should we categorize numbered entries? Thematically? Style of entry?