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| ===December 1, 1954=== | | ===December 1, 1954=== |
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Project citation: Mailer, Norman (2020). Lennon, J. Michael; Lucas, Gerald R.; Mailer, Susan, eds. "Lipton's Journal". Project Mailer. The Norman Mailer Society. Retrieved 2020-12-20.
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December 1, 1954
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Perhaps the artist is less |
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Lipton's seems to open one |
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Fucking is perhaps an approach |
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In relation to (1) |
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The concentration camp novel |
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Note. Unclear x-ref # in note.
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One should always listen attentively |
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Herbert A[ptheker]. said of Lipton’s |
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In modern jazz, one feels |
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Thoreau’s beautiful remark |
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I upset Herbert [Aptheker] by saying |
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In a short novel |
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December 8, 1954
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One should always try to |
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It seems to me that |
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It is possible that many |
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All of my life with Adele |
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If there is that other world |
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Listening to a child |
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I advertise to everyone |
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Six and Four are close |
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Knowledge is systematized ignorance |
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A novel is slowly emerging |
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It may be that the |
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In the conc. camp novel |
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There may actually be such |
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Every word sets up |
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Television may have some extraordinary |
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Possibly the spasmodic nervous system |
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Vomiting may be the orgasm |
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No saint can be a teacher |
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Infants may be enormously wise |
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The saint and the psychopath |
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No one is more unreligious |
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Medicine may be witchcraft |
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end: [and] its emphasis on progress.
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The aggressive instinct |
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Psychoanalysis, liberalism, etc. etc. |
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I have learned more from |
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In The Deer Park after the |
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If the more saintly people |
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In a Collier’s article |
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Words are not entirely bad |
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Death may be the price |
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I know nothing about semantics |
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Talk with Rhoda L. |
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December 17, 1954
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The saint and the churchman |
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There is no death-instinct |
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What worries me today |
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Spengler is a great writer |
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Swing in jazz is different |
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When Susie speaks of “war” |
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There is a lesson for me |
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A remark on why psychoanalysts |
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When the businessman thinks |
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Perhaps the reason Susy |
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I understand now what Danny |
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The word is a flat |
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In the larger sense |
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Note.
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The Stalinists have sneered |
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My characters in The Deer Park |
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Equations: Man is born |
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Added punctuation in ¶3.
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The big novel could |
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I learned a practical matter |
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I have always hated sentimentality |
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The measurement of time |
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Advertising and television and radio |
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Because the desire for material |
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Almost always experts can never |
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December 28, 1954
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At its best, my mind |
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Over and over again |
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December 29, 1954
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“Vested interest” is enormously more |
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Get beneath words |
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The gossip is the great |
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Words have not only echoes |
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The concealments of language |
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The sensual is the soul’s |
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The Sense of the Past |
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There are two kinds of hatred |
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The power of the word |
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They key to Sergius’ character |
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The breakup with Lulu |
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Note.
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Jokes. Charley Wiener just said |
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Note needed?: Charley Wiener
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Eitel in court |
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In error there is also truth |
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Eitel and Elena—last chapter |
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Note. Use partial w/ L81, too.
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Don Beda |
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Interpretations of present events |
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My feeling about semantics |
L42 |
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One thing must be said |
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Stories of dreams |
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Bombing as the great shitting |
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Comedians and comic writers |
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Women who always hate |
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The more knowledge |
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Possibly, bad works of art |
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The spy (another adventurer) |
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Actors and spies |
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When a friend says |
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“Am I boring you?” |
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So, boredom, depression, laughter |
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Saints and psychopaths |
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Laughter is spiritual |
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The psychopath sees the present |
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So the hipster is the adventurer |
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Given my intellectual verbal mind |
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A possibility occurs to me |
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Note.
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Marion Faye note |
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Note 103 could be |
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Marion Faye note |
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Marion Faye on Eitel |
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Marion Faye in prison |
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Sergius is my brother |
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Marion F Journal |
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My journal again |
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False humility |
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Seems like this should not be cut, as L115 alludes to it.
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Marion Faye journal |
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(My journal) Arrogance |
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Humor is more than wit |
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Marion Faye’s note |
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Man may be terrible |
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The fear of being ridiculous |
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Toward the end of Marion |
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Marion Faye’s note about |
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Any art-work which |
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“Do you know, Sergius?” |
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Dorothea O’Faye could figure |
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December 31, 1954
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I am getting whole bodies |
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Thoughts. All thoughts in words |
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People who make love |
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Get a tape recorder |
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Note. [add tea time info] still needed
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Word echoes: We have |
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On the understanding of genius |
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Word echoes. Mother and smother |
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Seriously, truly, just simply |
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In Marion Faye’s journal |
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Jazz is more creative |
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I used to be outwardly |
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Years ago, working with Malaquais |
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The world allows us to express |
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My ambition remains |
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I think that the new |
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Sexual psychopathy would be normal |
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Note.
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What I learn about The Deer Park |
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Most celebrities are people |
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Marion Faye’s journal |
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Anyone reading these notes |
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At the point where Eitel |
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The universe is a vast puzzle |
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In N.Y. if we want |
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Time is the sense of society |
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The so-called decadent writers |
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Wild thought. The atom bomb |
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Note.
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Don Beda should be |
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What Stalinists see |
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Don Beda should be |
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Time as the sense of society |
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Hand-written note not included.
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Bob Lindner. As he reads |
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The homo-erotic corollary |
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The corollary of this |
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What courage Adele has |
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What terrifies me is exactly |
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The fuck novel, “Antacid Analgesique.” |
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January 3, 1955
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If this record is to have |
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One of the curious effects |
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What I dislike so much |
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Perhaps a man kills |
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With Marion Faye this took |
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A psychopath expands |
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Any human scene |
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Precise speech appeals |
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Our fear of ghosts |
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On the other hand |
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The sensitivity spectrum |
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Does telepathic mean sick telepathy? |
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On television, many of the ads |
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There is also the possibility |
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Listening to Dizzy Gillespie |
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Word echoes |
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I suspect that an index |
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Psychopathic love |
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Consider whether Elena after |
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Sports and sex |
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Musicians. The saxophonist |
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Steve Allen talking while |
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I heard “The Star-Spangled Banner” |
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Competition of personality marks |
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Name for a Negro |
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Be-bop chorus |
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We may all have a social |
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Perhaps the secret |
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Note.
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This is the age |
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Memory may be a layer |
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Mailer underlined the first two sentences and wrote “Expand” in the margin.
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There’s no such thing |
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How do you like my |
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Fatty foods are cunt foods |
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Bob told the pickle factory joke |
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Obscenity substitutes |
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Obscenity echoes |
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In Barbary Shore I planted |
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January 20, 1955
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The poor drawing |
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Looking at myself |
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This is the age |
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When we run across |
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The tragic air of Mexico |
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Rich boys are proud |
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“Instants” and “moments” |
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John Walsh is a homosexual |
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Note. NM wrote “expand” in the margin-left of the last paragraph.
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If I have qualities of genius |
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The Perfect Secretary |
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See NM’s written gloss.
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The night Bob spoke |
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The affected person |
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How much real hatred |
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What we do on the surface |
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Homeostasis may be true |
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Our perception of others |
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Word echoes. Son is sin |
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January 24, 1955
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Word echoes. Possible way |
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Friday, Saturday, and Sunday |
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Note.
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To begin with, one |
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Notes.
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How I’m getting to love |
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Spies are takers |
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Thoughts about The Deer Park |
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When Elena is first introduced |
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Wrestlers and boxers |
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Homeostasis and sociostasis |
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Note.
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What I have noticed |
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Note.
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My character. I have always |
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Notes.
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Remember: The fear of being |
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In The Journal of Marion Faye |
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The movement of my writing |
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Should McLeod be glossed?
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I have always been the romantic |
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To condemn |
L205, L228 |
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Our resistance about changing |
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Rojo and ojo |
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Man and his dog |
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For three years while writing |
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Romance and realism |
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Note.
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The saint and the psychopath |
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In the saint-psychopath sense |
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This is the best day |
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I was deeply instinctively right |
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Yet the course of human history |
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For years, unknowingly |
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Bebop. P and B are sibling consonants |
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Notes.
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Golfers are people who take |
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Put another way, the sociostatic |
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But look at the philosophical |
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It also suggests that action |
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Which leads me to |
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Note.
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English is so magnificently blunt |
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To go back to note 245 |
L245 |
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Joyful thought |
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Children’s eating |
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Note.
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Everybody is both male and female |
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Should NM’s spelling be made consistent: e.g., bi-sexual or bisexual?
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January 25, 1955
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The advances in medicine |
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The predictor, the prophet |
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Note.
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The above note |
L255 |
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Bob is the dishonest man |
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I wonder if one doesn’t |
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Typing errors |
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But I wanted to finish |
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Note.
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What I wrote about Sergius |
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This Journal in so far |
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I realized so many funny |
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Since I started this Journal |
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Notes.
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The sense of time |
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Old people don’t slow down |
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To continue 265 I wonder |
L265 |
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The interesting confirmation |
L267 |
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269 |
Fed up. We stuff ourselves |
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Radicals. Particularly socialists |
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Prose on wings, tra-la, tra-la |
L270 |
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Note.
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So, modestly, I see my mission |
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Jews hated Hitler violently |
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What is a monster? |
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January 26, 1955
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I am coming to believe |
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276 |
276 |
I have noticed in analytic |
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Note.
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277 |
277 |
Let me put it this way |
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Should "basis" be "basic" in sentence 1?
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278 |
278 |
I know now why I |
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279 |
279 |
Clues, mysteries, puns |
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280 |
280 |
In this sense, we are all |
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281 |
281 |
If the above sounds very fancy |
L280 |
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282 |
282 |
Sociostasis and sociostasis |
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Notes.
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283 |
283 |
So in that sense |
L282 |
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Note.
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284 |
284 |
Little confirmations of 282 |
L282 |
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285 |
285 |
I have to face something |
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Note.
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286 |
286 |
Dialogue: Yesterday, Hiram Haydn |
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Note.
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287 |
287 |
Word echoes: Go, man, go |
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288 |
288 |
Bob Lindner is in the dramatic |
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Note.
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289 |
289 |
Let me try 283 again |
L283 |
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Note.
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290 |
290 |
Now I come back |
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291 |
291 |
The all-out Marxist |
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292 |
292 |
Now, back to 290 |
L290, L395 (in note) |
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Note.
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293 |
293 |
I’m getting exhausted |
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294 |
294 |
One takes in order to understand |
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295 |
295 |
But wrestlers who are givers |
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296 |
296 |
Talk is cheap, action is hard |
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297 |
297 |
Jokes. Argo. |
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298 |
298 |
No wonder I’ve always been |
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299 |
299 |
Back to x Jargon |
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300 |
300 |
B is the first consonant |
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301 |
301 |
Infant and I am faint |
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302 |
302 |
Ant and and |
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303 |
303 |
Obscenities: 69 |
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304 |
304 |
Jazz. Z and s are sibling components |
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305 |
305 |
At this moment I’m sick |
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306 |
306 |
But what a compulsion |
L305 |
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307 |
307 |
I’m getting weary |
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Note.
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308 |
308 |
Fuck, piss, cock, shit, cunt |
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309 |
309 |
I have heard writers say |
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310 |
310 |
When I was a kid |
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Note.
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311 |
311 |
My pompous man again |
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312 |
312 |
It seems obvious that insanity |
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313 |
313 |
Word echoes. Job |
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314 |
314 |
Aristocrats are usually takers |
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January 27, 1955
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315 |
As was evident in the notes |
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316 |
316 |
But what is also interesting |
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317 |
317 |
What I distrust of course. |
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318 |
318 |
On the positive side |
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319 |
319 |
Letter echoes: Be |
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320 |
320 |
For some time I have wanted |
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Note.
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321 |
321 |
The business of putting |
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322 |
322 |
Corollary. Whenever one reads |
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January 31, 1955
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323 |
323 |
My birthday today |
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324 |
324 |
A few word echoes |
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325 |
325 |
Give-and-take |
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326 |
326 |
The possibility of other |
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Notes.
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327 |
327 |
The voice of radio and recordings |
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328 |
328 |
But, carry this a step further |
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329 |
329 |
One’s own voice |
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330 |
330 |
One other observation |
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331 |
331 |
Mimics are always psychopaths |
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332 |
332 |
Last week I wrote |
Search |
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Note.
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333 |
333 |
I have the feeling these days |
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How should the 3rd sentence read?
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334 |
334 |
A great deal of this journal |
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335 |
335 |
Jealousy. But what a mountain |
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336 |
336 |
The cynic |
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337 |
337 |
The conservatism of the female |
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338 |
338 |
Word echoes. Breath, stripped |
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339 |
339 |
Exceptional people |
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Notes.
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340 |
340 |
Which brings me to Bob Lidner |
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Note.
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341 |
341 |
Page 100 |
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342 |
342 |
Stimulants. My ideas which started |
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343 |
343 |
Fascination keeps us on |
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344 |
344 |
What I neglected to say |
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345 |
345 |
Half-way stations |
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346 |
346 |
Journalists—another variety of psychopath |
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347 |
347 |
An interesting confirmation |
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348 |
348 |
Pro and con—prick and cunt |
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349 |
349 |
The Catholic Church |
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350 |
350 |
Word echoes. The and he |
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351 |
350A |
Word mirrors: |
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352 |
351 |
I cannot say it often enough |
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Should “od” be corrected?
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353 |
352 |
Horse-racing. An article |
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Note.
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354 |
353 |
Word echoes: Defense |
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355 |
354 |
Word echoes. Good, God |
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356 |
355 |
Good. Go to d, Go |
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357 |
356 |
Modern painting |
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358 |
357 |
The key to Bill Styron’s nature |
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Note.
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359 |
358 |
The inter-fecundation is starting |
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360 |
359 |
Which gives an insight into |
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361 |
360 |
I am always inept at arguing |
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362 |
361 |
More typing errors deliver |
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363 |
362 |
God and Jehovah, goal and jail |
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364 |
363 |
Word echo: By—By |
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365 |
364 |
A lot of this is probably |
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366 |
365 |
A corroborating proof |
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367 |
366 |
The reformer’s liberal ideas |
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368 |
367 |
Nat Halper. His work on the Joyce |
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Note.
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369 |
368 |
Modern art. Liberals, social democrats |
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370 |
369 |
Elena is a failure |
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371 |
370 |
Cancer. I believe instinctively |
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372 |
371 |
For The Deer Park |
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373 |
372 |
Word echoes: If and Is |
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374 |
373 |
I wrote the last note |
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375 |
374 |
Consonant echoes: X |
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376 |
375 |
The cross was where man |
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377 |
376 |
Adele’s qualities |
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378 |
377 |
The voice |
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379 |
378 |
A note on my Self-Analysis |
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Notes. Is “sociismus” supposed to be “socialismus” (socialism)?
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380 |
379 |
Word echoes. Son and sun |
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381 |
380 |
What-the-hell |
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382 |
381 |
Word echoes. Her and err |
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383 |
382 |
What I am doing with letters |
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384 |
383 |
Is W the world? |
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385 |
384 |
Son of a bitch |
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386 |
385 |
Simply, directly, I excited |
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387 |
386 |
Once in a while |
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388 |
387 |
f and v. F is fuck |
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389 |
388 |
I’m getting a little tired now |
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390 |
389 |
Anyway, I think I’ll finish |
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Notes.
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February 1, 1955
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Notes
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391 |
390 |
Today makes two months |
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392 |
391 |
Last night, having dinner |
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393 |
392 |
Later, today, if I can |
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394 |
393 |
What appears to me right |
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395 |
394 |
Word echoes. (I suppose |
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396 |
395 |
Another word echo here |
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397 |
396 |
The Burglar again |
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398 |
397 |
Disagreeable as it is |
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Notes.
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399 |
398 |
I suppose the last note |
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400 |
399 |
To finish note 390 |
390 |
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Notes.
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401 |
400 |
One addition to this |
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402 |
401 |
Back from lunch |
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403 |
402 |
A comment on the above |
402 |
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404 |
403 |
At the other end |
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Note.
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405 |
404 |
The Catholic would argue |
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Note.
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406 |
405 |
I may have a clue |
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407 |
406 |
Word echoes. I’ve discussed jazz |
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408 |
407 |
If my identification of red |
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409 |
408 |
Gate. And r: Great. |
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410 |
409 |
The strength of the Church. |
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Note.
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411 |
410 |
A note on my father. |
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Note.
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412 |
411 |
And now I understand Monroe |
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Note.
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413 |
412 |
On how I can’t destroy love. |
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Note.
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414 |
413 |
One thing bothers me. |
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415 |
414 |
A lay analyst. |
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416 |
415 |
I have a hunch |
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417 |
416 |
My sexual scar. |
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418 |
417 |
Depression is coming on |
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419 |
418 |
Perhaps the sexual explanation |
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420 |
419 |
Jesus, I’d rather be |
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421 |
420 |
A little interesting and |
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422 |
421 |
Decadence. I wonder |
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423 |
422 |
The above note was written |
422 |
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424 |
423 |
Echoes and opposites. |
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425 |
424 |
The spectrum of the saint-psychopath. |
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Note.
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426 |
425 |
The above not ought |
425 |
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427 |
426 |
Before I quit, I want to list |
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February 2, 1955
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First Words |
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Notes
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428 |
427 |
Continuing on H |
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429 |
428 |
The horrible thought occurs |
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430 |
429 |
The artist and his paranoia. |
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431 |
430 |
Note 214 was about the |
215 |
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432 |
431 |
It is really incredible that |
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433 |
432 |
Each of the Church’s dictums |
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434 |
433 |
The gambler’s debt |
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435 |
434 |
I’ve spent the last few hours |
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Notes. Where should the open parenthesis end? I don’t see the last sentence in the original.
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February 7, 1955
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First Words |
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Notes
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436 |
435 |
The opening into myself |
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The first parenthesis does not close.
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437 |
436 |
One idea in this |
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Text added to 436.
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438 |
436 |
The intellectual is antipathetic |
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439 |
437 |
At any rate each time |
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440 |
438 |
I have to explain what |
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441 |
439 |
But I go at this |
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442 |
440 |
Besides I may discover |
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443 |
441 |
Anyway, let’s go back |
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444 |
442 |
Parenthesis after parenthesis |
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445 |
443 |
The anarchist as he exists |
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446 |
444 |
But, again, back to give-and-take |
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447 |
445 |
Now, give-san-take |
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448 |
446 |
Give-and take is the secret |
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449 |
447 |
Marriage, every marriage |
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450 |
448 |
Up and down, in and out |
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451 |
449 |
The world of commerce |
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452 |
450 |
Action is one of the enigmas |
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453 |
451 |
Yet to stay alive we |
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454 |
451 |
Let me put it another way |
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455 |
452 |
So, a partial justification |
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456 |
453 |
Just above I wrote 42 |
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457 |
454 |
Perhaps the clue |
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458 |
455 |
The crook in Bob Lindner |
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Note.
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459 |
456 |
Sesame. The sex of me |
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460 |
457 |
But why can I understand |
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Note.
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461 |
458 |
After lunch, and how |
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462 |
459 |
Crooks are interested |
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Note.
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463 |
460 |
What I started to say |
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464 |
461 |
Japanese: Their word for yes |
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465 |
462 |
Chinese: A very primitive language |
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466 |
463 |
I’m one of the first |
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Note.
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467 |
464 |
There is so much to be said |
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468 |
465 |
The art of the playwright |
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Note.
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469 |
466 |
Beating and being |
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470 |
467 |
German. The Germans are philosophers |
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471 |
469 |
Anyway, the Germans |
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Note.
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472 |
470 |
eeeeeeeeeeeeeee |
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473 |
471 |
V becomes closer |
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474 |
472 |
Double V is WW |
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475 |
473 |
VVVVVVV is close |
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476 |
474 |
Vomiting. I see |
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477 |
475 |
Mother. The masculine other |
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478 |
476 |
Er would be a far |
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479 |
477 |
Super. To sup and to er |
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480 |
478 |
I’m getting tired again |
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481 |
479 |
But I haven’t even begun |
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Note.
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482 |
480 |
Any rationalist reading |
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483 |
481 |
For the first time I |
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484 |
482 |
In the middle of the cliché |
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485 |
483 |
But I just can’t get |
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486 |
484 |
Let’s start with orgasm |
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487 |
485 |
To attempt to go on |
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488 |
486 |
To be continued tomorrow |
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489 |
486a |
Before I go on with |
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490 |
487 |
So, if my premise |
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Note.
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491 |
488 |
I keep trying to write |
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492 |
489 |
Which is why I have |
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493 |
490 |
Mom. A cunt O |
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494 |
491 |
I’ve spent the last |
423 |
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495 |
492 |
Following my Clue |
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496 |
493 |
Back to bisexuals |
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497 |
494 |
So, the bisexual in society |
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498 |
495 |
I’m getting hipped |
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499 |
496 |
The next “idea” |
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500 |
497 |
What characterizes the power-mad |
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501 |
498 |
I’ve just been out for lunch |
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502 |
496 |
This has all been a preface |
499 |
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503 |
497 |
At any rate, I still believe |
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504 |
498 |
And, of course, the little |
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|
505 |
499 |
What a jewel of a word |
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|
506 |
500 |
But what remains |
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Note.
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507 |
501 |
The cop is getting stronger |
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508 |
502 |
I’ve got to shake this off |
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509 |
503 |
The family dinner |
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510 |
504 |
I don’t have the patience |
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511 |
505 |
Dynamo. Dine at mom’s |
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512 |
506 |
While we’re on consonants |
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513 |
507 |
Example: Formalize (Fuck of |
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514 |
508 |
From time to time I worry |
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515 |
509 |
Course of events |
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|
516 |
510 |
I have postulated unisexuality |
|
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Note.
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517 |
511 |
We and Us |
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518 |
512 |
World. It is a prettier |
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519 |
513 |
But ‘rectal’ I’m sure |
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520 |
514 |
RL again. Relish |
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521 |
515 |
The difficulty in consonant |
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522 |
516 |
An old cliché is called |
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523 |
517 |
Regal—egal |
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524 |
518 |
Acts of the body |
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525 |
519 |
The is and the ing. |
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526 |
520 |
When an intelligent person |
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Note.
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527 |
521 |
Adele gets furious these days |
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528 |
522 |
Actually, there’s no contradiction |
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Note.
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529 |
523 |
But this opens the peculiar |
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530 |
524 |
Excelsior! Hardons onward |
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531 |
525 |
Excelsior: What I’m getting at |
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532 |
526 |
Now, of course, an analyst |
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533 |
527 |
Yet, we cannot deny it |
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534 |
528 |
I’m very dissatisfied |
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535 |
529 |
Time is Number |
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536 |
530 |
Toynbee’s challenge |
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537 |
531 |
We and wee |
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|
538 |
532 |
The beggar-king |
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|
539 |
533 |
The reason the common people |
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|
540 |
534 |
And so the enigma |
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541 |
535 |
And that is why certain |
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542 |
536 |
A dick is a cock |
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543 |
537 |
Twot. The thing of what? |
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|
544 |
538 |
Man and society |
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|
545 |
539 |
I just realized that the reason |
|
|
Note.
|
546 |
540 |
Anybody who’s really |
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|
547 |
541 |
I have to explore |
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|
548 |
542 |
Hemingway’s peculiar weakness |
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|
549 |
543 |
Depressants and stimulants |
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|
550 |
544 |
The above was hardly |
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|
551 |
545 |
So, to begin with, |
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552 |
546 |
I’m written out |
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February 10, 1955
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First Words |
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Notes
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553 |
547 |
A new typewriter ribbon |
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|
554 |
548 |
Today is L plus 1 |
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|
555 |
549 |
But what I want to try |
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|
556 |
550 |
This can help to explain |
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|
557 |
551 |
For the analyst and the analysand |
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|
558 |
552 |
I have come to a conclusion |
|
|
Note.
|
559 |
553 |
The fluoridation of water |
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|
560 |
554 |
Investigating the consonants |
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|
561 |
555 |
On the vowels |
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|
562 |
556 |
I have an idea |
|
|
Note.
|
February 14, 1955
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NM# |
First Words |
x-Refs |
Cut |
Notes
|
563 |
557 |
Again I start work |
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|
564 |
558 |
The kick-off was |
|
|
Note.
|
565 |
559 |
I have not warmed up |
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|
566 |
560 |
I’ve come up with something |
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|
567 |
561 |
For days I’ve been working |
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|
568 |
562 |
A lover of music |
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|
569 |
563 |
But I am the person |
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|
570 |
564 |
It can be stated |
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|
571 |
565 |
Pain and pleasure |
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572 |
566 |
“Stupid” people find |
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Note.
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573 |
565 |
Antacid Analgesic |
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Note.
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574 |
566 |
What a title |
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Note.
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575 |
567 |
Yes, I am a rationalist |
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576 |
568 |
And isn’t that the Devil? |
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577 |
569 |
My nose has stopped running |
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578 |
570 |
A truly great man |
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579 |
571 |
Ruthless and Truthful |
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|
580 |
572 |
What I’ve been avoiding |
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581 |
573 |
I got the D.T.’s |
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582 |
574 |
Last night taking my Seconal |
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583 |
575 |
What bothered me about |
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Notes.
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584 |
576 |
Kill or be killed |
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585 |
577 |
Ted Amussen cannot express |
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Notes.
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586 |
578 |
The and He |
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587 |
579 |
Antacid Analgesic is filled |
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588 |
580 |
P, I believe, signifies |
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589 |
581 |
Energy spent on solving |
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590 |
582 |
The curve is life |
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591 |
583 |
Classicist and Romantic |
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592 |
584 |
Last night on the train |
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593 |
585 |
My throat is sore again |
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594 |
586 |
Patience and impatience |
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595 |
587 |
The reason this journal |
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|
596 |
588 |
To understand a neurotic |
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597 |
589 |
(ENTERING_and_LEAVING) |
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598 |
590 |
Impatience—patience |
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599 |
591 |
I’m really beginning to dig |
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600 |
592 |
The malfunction of entering-leaving |
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601 |
592 |
The phallic-narcissist (Jim Jones) |
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602 |
593 |
Back from lunch |
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603 |
593 |
But another revelatory contradiction |
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604 |
594 |
“Freedom is the recognition |
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605 |
595 |
I don’t know if I agree |
604 |
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606 |
596 |
Let me make as assumption |
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|
607 |
597 |
Yet, this is still true |
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608 |
598 |
Which is where an understanding |
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Note.
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609 |
599 |
I lost weight all last summer |
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|
610 |
600 |
I wonder if once smoking |
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|
611 |
601 |
The rationalist says |
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|
612 |
602 |
What I suspect about Lipton’s |
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|
613 |
603 |
My sore throat seems gone |
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Note.
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614 |
604 |
One healthy thing I am |
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615 |
605 |
The part and the whole |
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616 |
606 |
As I said to Bob |
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617 |
607 |
Reason, the logic on One |
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|
618 |
608 |
One thing to say |
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|
619 |
609 |
A thousand things yet |
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February 21, 1955
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NM# |
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Notes
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620 |
610 |
Avery (Men with the name |
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|
621 |
611 |
Here we go again |
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|
622 |
612 |
Out of curiosity |
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|
623 |
613 |
I truly have the feeling |
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|
624 |
614 |
The reason I believe |
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|
625 |
615 |
Saw Mutiny on the Bounty |
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Notes.
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626 |
616 |
And Laughton |
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|
627 |
617 |
Over and over I come |
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|
628 |
618 |
Sup, x er, lerve, and the Juggler |
|
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|
629 |
619 |
Back to Laughton |
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|
Notes.
|
630 |
620 |
A few word echoes |
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|
631 |
621 |
My sore throat |
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632 |
622 |
I have an enormously tense |
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|
633 |
623 |
Cigarette smoking |
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|
634 |
624 |
The cigarette is society’s substitute |
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|
635 |
624 |
A shit-eating grin |
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|
636 |
625 |
Before I go to lunch |
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|
637 |
626 |
Hatred is the defense |
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|
638 |
627 |
Semen. How it appears everywhere |
|
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|
639 |
628 |
Milk. Another semen-substitute |
|
|
|
640 |
629 |
Last night I caught a piece |
|
|
Note.
|
641 |
630 |
Tears and semen |
|
|
Note.
|
642 |
631 |
I realized during lunch |
|
|
|
643 |
632 |
Psychoanalyzing names |
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|
|
644 |
633 |
Homosexuality |
|
|
Note.
|
645 |
634 |
The Burglar [Edmund Bergler] |
|
|
|
646 |
635 |
The phallic narcissist |
|
|
|
647 |
636 |
All day I have been holding |
|
|
|
648 |
635 |
There, Now, I like him again |
|
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|
649 |
636 |
What’s in a name |
|
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|
650 |
637 |
Three and tree |
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|
651 |
638 |
Out of sight, out of mind |
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|
652 |
639 |
I have a feeling that |
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|
653 |
635 |
What occurs to me |
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|
654 |
636 |
Over the weekend I took |
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Note.
|
655 |
637 |
An article in Scientific American |
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|
656 |
638 |
Word echoes and tag lines |
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|
February 22, 1955
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NM# |
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657 |
639 |
Today, I’m completely down |
|
Part |
|
658 |
640 |
I feel fairly barren of ideas |
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|
|
659 |
641 |
First comes “back and front” |
|
|
|
660 |
642 |
A corollary. Refrigerators |
|
|
|
661 |
643 |
I have postulated consciousness |
|
|
|
662 |
644 |
There is only one revolution |
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|
663 |
645 |
The revolutionary and the mystic |
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|
|
664 |
646 |
Time. Our idea of it |
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|
665 |
647 |
Thus, the future exists |
|
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|
666 |
648 |
The value of commodities |
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|
|
667 |
649 |
Has anyone remarked |
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|
668 |
650 |
Actor’s say of an emotional |
|
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|
669 |
651 |
Steve Allen obeys Joyce’s |
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|
|
670 |
652 |
Social forms: We say |
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|
671 |
653 |
Obscenity |
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|
672 |
654 |
The double meaning of consonants |
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|
673 |
655 |
They. Th ay Instantaneity |
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|
674 |
656 |
When I take Lipton’s |
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|
675 |
657 |
Psyche. Sigh—Key |
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|
|
676 |
658 |
All business partnerships |
|
|
|
677 |
659 |
Shakespeare is the decadent genius |
|
|
|
678 |
660 |
The relation of h to f |
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|
679 |
661 |
Chess. The dramatization |
|
|
|
680 |
662 |
The aviator is a hipster too |
|
|
|
681 |
663 |
Adele, as only I have seen her |
|
|
Note.
|
682 |
664 |
The salesman has to sell |
|
|
|
683 |
665 |
The foot-note leads |
|
|
|
684 |
666 |
I glimpse a form |
|
|
|
685 |
667 |
I suspect that the form |
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|
|
686 |
668 |
Psyche Soma |
|
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|
687 |
669 |
I can hardly complain |
|
|
|
688 |
670 |
I suspect that the frequency |
|
|
|
689 |
671 |
I still haven’t expressed |
|
|
|
690 |
672 |
The hush |
|
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|
691 |
672 |
Laughter. We laugh when we |
|
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|
692 |
673 |
The root oom |
|
|
|
693 |
674 |
V contain the opposed |
|
|
|
694 |
675 |
More on laughter |
|
|
|
695 |
676 |
Exhiliaration and depression in writing |
|
|
|
696 |
677 |
Those periods in history |
|
|
|
697 |
678 |
In the course of this journal |
|
|
|
698 |
679 |
Ideas and thought |
|
|
|
699 |
680 |
People who are in |
|
|
|
700 |
681 |
Reversals. From Legman |
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|
|
March 4, 1955
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NM# |
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Cut |
Notes
|
701 |
682 |
This is going to be tough |
|
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|
702 |
683 |
Laughton came to town |
|
|
Note.
|
703 |
684 |
This typewriter is giving me |
|
|
|
704 |
685 |
shit shit shit shit shit shit |
|
|
|
705 |
686 |
I do want to say |
|
|
|
706 |
687 |
Also I have been going |
|
|
Note.
|
707 |
688 |
Tonight people are coming |
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|
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Questions
- What do we want to do with omitted entry numbers? Just skip them? Or should they be included in the digital version but not the printed?
- Are the numbers on Donna’s transcript the new, correct numbers? (I know Mike said that Mailer mis-numbered some entries.)
- Should each entry date have its own index page? Perhaps each numbered entry could be summarized here?
- Should each numbered entry should have its own (sub)page? I think yes.
- Should each numbered entry have a title other than a number? Each could have a shortcut, so if the title is
Lipton’s Journal/December 1, 1954/1
, the shortcut could be LJ1
or just L1
.
- Should we categorize numbered entries? Thematically? Style of entry?