Lipton’s Journal/January 20, 1955/199: Difference between revisions

Looking at myself in the mirror,{{refn|In ''[[The Armies of the Night]]'' (1968), {{NM}} states that the only part of his personality he finds to be “absolutely insupportable” is “the nice Jewish boy from Brooklyn.”}} high on Lipton’s I saw myself as follows: The left side of my face is comparatively heavy, sensual, possessor of hard masculine knowledge, strong, proud, and vain. Seen front-face I appear nervous, irresolute, tender, anxious, vulnerable, earnest, and Jewish middle-class. The right side of my face is boyish, saintly, bisexual, psychopathic, and suggests the victim.